tiltawhirl

wondering

is it still a dissociative break if you don't use vacation time?

what is it...

about being near the ocean that makes you feel like it's possible to live forever?

Photos from our weekend in Cannon Beach

i have a bad feeling

things are ramping up to go terribly wrong. i wish i could stop feeling this way, so that if things do in fact go terribly wrong, at least i would have a few days to look back on and think of as "the day before things went terribly wrong, before I knew".

like when you're sad, and you wake up in the morning and for a few minutes you don't remember what's wrong, and you have a few glorious seconds before you remember that you are sad, or that your heart is broken.

anyway, i'm hoping i'm wrong, and that in a week this will all sound bizarre.